As a writer, especially one of my age, you grow. I feel I have outgrown this blog in a way. I want to start over. I am going to post a link with the new blog later after it is all set up. 

I remember the stars in my eyes
They once shined so bright
But have since vanished
All that remains is a faint glimmer
A mere glimmer of hope

Each star has taken its place
In a different galaxy other than mine
The moon begins to wax and wane
While I slowly go insane

I find a hint of comfort in my grief
And anguish and pain
You told me you’d always be there
That you’d always care
That promise was all in vain
Why did you leave so soon?

I remember the stars in my eyes
They once shined so bright
But have since vanished
He had the honor of watching them fall,
Like shooting stars
All hope is gone

I’m stuck out here and the snow is falling
I cannot help but to wonder where you are
Because when I look to the sky
Undoubtedly, the wind blows you into my mind
Your heart must have gotten lost
It got lost in this grey, dreary hue
You must have took mine along too
I can’t feel anything anymore

I’m stuck out here and winter is coming to a close
I long to feel the harsh words I had spoken melt away
To dissolve, just like the frost from the bitter winter
But they remain frozen solid
Flowers are beginning to bloom
And the clouds are clearing the myriad of blue
I just wish I knew
Why?
Why you?

I detect a ghost in the mirror
he is staring back at me
portraying cogitations
that nobody can see

My every thought
is replaying vividly
even the most distraught
the darkness lures me in
never to be seen again

In the coffin I do not lie
but in the mirror I cry
as I inspect my past life

Make my bones scream your name
As I’m stripped of every inkling of pain
With every stroke of my heart
My flaws run and hide from shame
Don’t let this love be all in vain 

She said,
“Death is a promise that cannot be undone.
We promised, we promised, to always be one.”

Death snuck in with only one scheme
which was to sever the bond of their unity
Something once so strong and full of life
came to an end with just one knife 

He said,
“Death is a promise that cannot be undone.
I’m sorry, I’m sorry, we can’t always be one.” 

Your every beautiful mistake
Severs fragments of my heart
Forcing it to slowly break
To bleed the sorrow filled tears
That I cried every night
For the past five years 

Ice still covers my heart 
I long to feel it melt away
To put an end to this harsh winter
And begin to show the newness of spring 
I yearn for flowers to bloom between cracks of bitterness
To reveal the start of something positive
Until then, I wait while this blizzard grows more fierce

Love is selfishly selfless.

I reminisce when you used to shine
like the twinkling stars above
but those stars divorced the sky
leaving nothing, not even a goodbye

Dear Nobody, 

It is late winter now and I can’t help but wonder where you are. The snow is barely falling. I long to feel the hurtful words I’ve said in the past melt away like this frost from a bitter winter. When I look up at the sky I think of you. Your heart is lost in this grey, dreary hue. You took mine along too. I guess that is a good thing. They can keep each other company since senseless death separated us. Everyday I pray that it is nice in the “better place” everyone claims you went to. In my heart, well in this hole rather, I know it has to be grand up there. I know you are somewhere.

Love,

me

I’m tripping over my past
falling headfirst into what I once had
and what I long for, but did not last.